I yearn for Trust--
the kind that tells
the water not to become the sky,
not just yet;
the skin to hold the line between
worlds breath by breath,
until something inside me
just desires to exhale out and out
A spider sunk fangs in me today,
and I bear a tattoo of red lines
from elbow to armpit.
Maybe I cried "yes, bite harder"
a little too loudly in my mind,
but the cry was also
the root and trunk and branches
a Living tree.
I will etch ihidaya over and over,
following the runnels and green-brown armor
until its bark
into my hair