They said to Yeshua,
Let us fast and pray.”
He said to them,
“Have I sinned?
Have been overcome?
No, only when the bridegroom
leaves the bridal chamber
will it be time to fast and pray.”
Translation: Lynn Bauman in
The Gospel of Thomas: Wisdom of the Twin
The First Response:
There is an urge today,
to lay my head down on the keyboard.
Not to cry, no,
that would mean
a trip to the city to replace
the tech—it doesn’t do well with salt and water
splashing on JKL;
the surgery drained something I’d taken for granted—
a nice, smooth round belly,
with fiery stretch marks, true,
my usually bounding energy that now
runs on three huge mugs of green tea.
It’s all a passing piece of elevator music-
energy and the lack of it,
body and the way it looked a year ago,
and if I shut my eyes here,
filling my little sac of mostly water with
the notes that hover always,
an internal sky alive with vibration,
melody that precedes words or songs or baby cries,
I will have my fast and prayer
enter into the bridal chamber where
the Beloved laughs and traces my scars
and helps me try on the different tattoos
Journey through Logos:
When we move out of our center, out of our sense of reigning with ease, that is the time to return to practices that re-ground us. Our sense of aloneness might be the trigger, as well as our agitation and sense of the fearfulness or combativeness. Our Beloved has left the bridal chamber of our hearts (or so we think) and it’s right and proper then to come back to prayer and abiding meditation and breath and fasts so that we re-awaken and return to Presence.
But such practices, done out of habit or with an eye toward being religiously correct do not bring rest, they bring a sense of propriety, effort, willfulness. When abiding, simply abide. When you cannot, then return to the skills you have learning when you searched, found, worked with trouble and settled into wonder. This is the way of Yeshua’s rest—skillful use of the tools of religion freed from the onus of obligatory practice.
Hokmah’s Symphonic Note:
“. . . I feel we don’t really need scriptures. The entire life is an open book, a scripture. Read it. Learn while digging a pit or chopping some wood or cooking some food. If you can’t learn from your daily activities, how are you going to understand the scriptures? (233)”
“It's very simple. Keep your body as clean as possible, your mind as clear as possible. That's all you need. And do it in anyway you can, in your own way. It doesn't matter. That's why I say 'peaceful body, peaceful mind'. And then you'll be useful. You don't have to become a useful person. You will be useful.”
How do you know when the Bridegroom has left the bridal chamber, when you are out of balance and no longer abiding as a sovereign Presence in your world? What tools might you use to find your balance and center again?
We enter into rest when we can use the tools of entering into presence at the right time and for the right reasons.
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