from Trouble to Wonder
God’s realm is like this:
A farmer planted good seed
in his field,
but at night, enemies came
and sowed it with weeds.
When he found out,
he did not allow them to be
pulled up, saying,
“No, you might uproot the grain
along with the weeds. Wait till harvest.
It will be perfectly apparent then
which ones are the weeds,
and you may pull them out easily
and burn them.”
Translation: Lynn Bauman in
The Gospel of Thomas: Wisdom of the Twin
The First Response:
Sometimes the way to work with trouble
is to wait—
no, not in the “count to ten” mode
although, that will keep you breathing--
I mean the kind of waiting that merges with wonder,
that place where we can see our anger
blazing like the sun,
our jealousy like a swamp filled with bird calls,
our injured pride
like the turtle
who lifts his neck long, gazing at the sky.
Trouble can be juicy,
a fresh pomegranate
to be nibbled on until
we can sweep the seeds into the soil,
and trust in things like
Journey through Logos:
The transition logion is delightful today, earthy wisdom about allowing ourselves to put space and time around trouble until it begins to shift into something very much like wonder. Emotional states are not stable things, and Yeshua is teaching a kind of deep, agricultural patience and wisdom here. We will know what ideas we have sown into our minds and hearts will bear rich food and what will need to be consigned to the compost pile if we give ourselves enough time to live into it all.
The next section we turn to is one of wonder, although not always the kind that could be labeled as “feel good” energy. Remember, Yeshua is a master storyteller. He’ll take us through all the textures of wonder, some of which border on the old meaning of the word “awe” which is a potent mix of energies that include a healthy kind of wide-eyed fearfulness.
But holding both wonder and trouble in the light is a huge part of sovereignty, a word that captures our ability to move with a kind of deep authenticity through our world. That, too, will be part of this Way of Yeshua in its right time.
Hokmah’s Symphonic Note:
“There is something good in all seeming failures. You are not to see that now. Time will reveal it. Be patient.”
“This world is your best teacher. There is a lesson in everything. There is a lesson in each experience. Learn it and become wise. Every failure is a stepping stone to success. Every difficulty or disappointment is a trial of your faith. Every unpleasant incident or temptation is a test of your inner strength.”
How do you wait out trouble, until you can clearly see what part of it is weeds and what part is a useable and important lesson? What techniques might you use to hold you “escaping” and thus not allowing yourself to experience wonder?
We are filled with wonder when we realize we can put a great deal of space and waiting around trouble, and that act will show us both the wheat and weeds of our own minds and hearts.
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